Today I Vacuumed
This isn’t earth-shattering news. This isn’t news at all, and in the grand
scheme of things not even remotely important compared to the devastation in the
northeast, the continued economic malady and the malevolent and divisive
political climate so dense it is palpable.
Yet for me, for today, vacuuming was everything.
It may not be apparent here, where I can often close off the
world for just a little while and burrow down into the safe confines of my
virtual hammock, but I am being pummeled by life right now, and am struggling
mightily. I have hesitated to even bring
it up, because again, compared to the adversity and hardship others are going
through (possibly even you), my little problems are not even on the chart. Besides, I normally maintain a centered focus of finding the glimmer of hope anywhere and project that here in the positive. If I have a 'down' day, I try to keep it to myself. Also, there are two sides to this - first of all, I can only experience
whatever situation that I am in at
present, and while it isn’t a loss of a job or a loved one or a home, it is still my
experience, and very raw and real to me, just as I try to gain
perspective on others’ pain and difficulty, no matter my view of it. This leads
me to the second side of my own personal coin – I often feel intensely, deeply
and tangibly the suffering of others. I
suppose this is the double-edge to the incredibly insane love and compassion I
sense for humanity because I often take on the collective anguish of others as
well.
So back to vacuuming.
I am struggling in probably all ways possible at the
moment. Professionally, personally,
relationally, emotionally, spiritually.
You name it. So today, as I sat
in my office, staring at a computer screen, knowing I should be doing something, anything to chip away at the long list of things I needed
accomplish, suddenly the debris on the floor from a chore overlooked came into
focus. I knew I could accomplish that task. I knew
I could see it from start to finish with a neat, tidy floor to show for it. Without a shadow of a doubt, I knew how to vacuum. So I did.
In the middle of the day, in the midst of our department
building, in my ‘professional attire’, I put my entire heart and soul into a
clean floor and a job well done. To the
soothing hum of the machine, I let myself focus on the task itself, not
fourteen other things that also need my immediate attention. I concentrated on being thorough instead of
getting to a point of desperation and flying through cutting corners. It was a job that, while no one was around to
appreciate the long overdue task getting done, that didn't matter. It made the little corner of my
world, in that moment, for today, a better place and all okay.
I could not help the people who are swimming out from under
their belongings today in the aftermath of a storm. I could not solve all of the inefficiency and
bumbling that makes my work environment exasperating at best, maddening at
worst. I could not change what has
shifted in my life that has left me numb.
I could not yet do anything to directly impact the betterment of
humanity at large.
But I could vacuum.




























